To be young.

change of pace needed ; acquire within.

Mon, 28 Feb 2011 23:59:00 -0500

work is killing me. i used to enjoy going to work and now it makes me completely miserable to even think about going in. Maybe I made a huge mistake moving up to manage a house. actually im positive it was a mistake. i don’t even feel like stepping down is a good idea, im better off finding a different job and getting away from the company. shitty shitty shitty. oh and my transmission gave out this afternoon so that doesn’t help matters. ugh, and happy birthday week Benjamin.

babe,

Sat, 13 Nov 2010 04:01:13 -0500

I can’t stop thinking about you. I wish I could roll over and hold you and not let go. I know my actions say otherwise but you’re everything to me. There’s nobody on this planet that makes me feel so complete, nobody I could even imagine spending the rest of my life with. Things can only get better from here and I’m gonna fix all of this. you’ll be proud to call me yours. I love you.

I FUCKED UP.

Fri, 22 Oct 2010 19:26:39 -0400

Yesterday I had a meeting with John Williams to talk about the house checks I have been doing. Seeing as how it was my day off and I already put 54 hours in by wednesday night, I forgot. If I would have went to this meeting I would be the manager of Laurelton today. But I didnt, and for that I kick myself in the ass. Youre and idiot Ben. How could you let a chance like that just slip right by you?

That could have changed everything for me. Finally. I wouldnt have to live check to check. I could buy a house. Buy a car. Michelle could quit working. Everything would have been much better.

Im going to get really drunk.

Like a love movie.

Mon, 26 Jul 2010 21:37:45 -0400

I know it’s Monday but I just want to say, I had the greatest weekend. With the greatest girl. And some of the greatest friends. And alot more of the greatest girl.

Doctor, Doctor!

Fri, 23 Jul 2010 18:35:56 -0400

These thoughts that race through my mind aren’t helping to be a happier person. I feel like a failure and that I should be farther ahead in life and doing good for myself. I’m over the party lifestyle. Honestly, all I want to do is grow up. I need help getting on track and staying there for once. Cause see, that’s where my problem lies. Staying ON track has never been my thing. ” live for the moment, live for today” “live fast, die young. ” Things I actually thought were actually good rules to live by are all now just stupid mistakes I regret and have to live with. Every time I look in the mirror I’m reminded of a regret, something that eats me up and kills me just a little more each time.

On a better note, you Michelle Riley make everything great. I don’t have a worry in the world when I get to hold you and for that, I can’t thank you enough for being the love of my life and and keeping my head up when it needs to be. I love you.

I have the fear all my friends are going to look down on me. I...

Sat, 13 Mar 2010 14:32:39 -0500

I have the fear all my friends are going to look down on me. I just want to be happy again. Thats all im doing.

@ohhhleann just say it already

Mon, 01 Mar 2010 11:49:11 -0500

@ohhhleann just say it already

karamichelle: Maybe we should just let them think they’re...

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 12:38:02 -0500

karamichelle:

Maybe we should just let them think they’re right?

Oh, another one is the word than … seems to be misused quite often.

but I’ll let you figure that one out.

This ones for my “Best friend” @Brianwarnerfox.

Tue, 23 Feb 2010 23:32:11 -0500

This ones for my “Best friend” @Brianwarnerfox.

Two trees, One root.

Tue, 23 Feb 2010 23:22:17 -0500

Sometimes making a 140 Character post is like an art. Finding words to replace other but still get the same meaning and passion send out. Maybe cutting wrd dwn to save space. But sometimes, 140 characters just isn’t enough. Like how I’m high right now rambling on and on and on again about stupid shit like 140 character posts.

Point is really, and simply, I love the Internet. And I’m pretty sure it loves me back.

I just think this is really cool.

Mon, 22 Feb 2010 11:38:03 -0500

I just think this is really cool.

yes I listen to bucket head. its really good. Better than you...

Fri, 19 Feb 2010 13:13:15 -0500

yes I listen to bucket head. its really good. Better than you would think, im talking get high and sit in the grass. just listen.

All he wanted for dinner was French Toast and I wasnt about to...

Fri, 19 Feb 2010 12:22:05 -0500

All he wanted for dinner was French Toast and I wasnt about to pay 8.99 for some shitty hotel food so we went out and Picked up some Big Boys, but he ate it so fast I didnt get a picture of it. But I did manage to get a picture of his pie haha. I hope you enjoy the pictures. Cause I know we enjoyed our night out on the town.

He rode the waterslide at least 100 times. And he had a smile...

Fri, 19 Feb 2010 12:09:43 -0500

He rode the waterslide at least 100 times. And he had a smile on his face the entire time. I dont think ive had more fun on an outing than this. Two down, One more set to go.

Brian turned 30 years old last week and I got to take him to a...

Fri, 19 Feb 2010 11:35:34 -0500

Brian turned 30 years old last week and I got to take him to a Hotel / Waterpark in Sterling Heights. Needless to say, he loved it. I tried getting as many pictures as possible but I had to spend alot of time in the water also. So here is One of Two, Maybe Three uploads of his awesome evening.

Forever, and ever.

Sat, 30 Jan 2010 15:40:24 -0500

Its been forever since Ive been on here. I havent had a computer so updating was just to hard to do. My father is now living with me. Im sort of enjoying spending time with him. I missed him. Hes stating to take recovery seriously. For the first time in years I honestly feel like I have my father back. And do be honest once more, I never, ever thought I would see this side of him again.

He just got out of Jail for driving with a suspended license, probation violation for his 3rd DUI and i really didnt blame him for it. He was just trying to make money driving cars for a dealership. They only paid him 30 bucks a car but still, hes been dead broke for so long, 30 bucks would have went a long way. its just the Beitler luck to get caught when things for once in a long time start looking better.

If youre still reading im shocked. I just needed to vent and now I have.

Now I need to go to Meijer and get some dog food and an antenna for my television.

The Black Dahlia Muder’s new CD preview. FYE style but...

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 00:17:04 -0400

The Black Dahlia Muder’s new CD preview. FYE style but still, fuck. I need it.

I cant believe that dude is still blurred. haha, this is going...

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 16:19:31 -0400

I cant believe that dude is still blurred. haha, this is going to be awesome.

Sidenote; I am on the verge of a mental/nervous break down. Some people just dont know when to quit. Its like, you know youre pissing me off right now, why continue? Fuck man.

Oh and I had dinner with my parent for my moms bday. as you may or may not know, i Dont speak to them. Not since my dad went to jail 2 xmas’s ago. very awkward but it made my sister happy.

I wish that things take a turn for the better real quick. Maybe...

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 01:18:50 -0400

I wish that things take a turn for the better real quick. Maybe itll take a few months, but I just havent been myself for over a year now. shitty life, city life

I had the time of my fucking life lastnight. My throat is so...

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 13:22:09 -0400

I had the time of my fucking life lastnight. My throat is so sore, my head hurts, feet hurt. But all I want to do is go back to DTE and do it all over again. Not only was Blink on point, Fall out Boy and Panic! at the disco were both amazing to see. I seriously need to get tickets for the Ohio show so I can see Taking back Sunday and Weezer.